I miss Karen when she is gone, and I know she misses me, we have loads of connection and relaxation time when we are together. We are aware of and support each others programs and are conscious of any colluding we might do or want to do and for the most part don’t. So what makes things easier when I am alone? Well I am feeling absolutely no responsibility for anyone but myself. As the cook in the family I think I do take on responsibility for feeding the two of us when Karen is here. I like that responsibility and I love cooking and eating for Karen and I do realize that when I add that to the mix it does make it more difficult for me to stay conscious and make the moderation choices that I can make when conscious.
This of course is not just about Karen, it is about social eating and cooking as well. I am about to head into a 5 day meeting with the Leaders of the Leadership Program and most of the meals will be shared and boisterous conversation will be had over meals. So I am giving myself the challenge of staying conscious while eating at those functions, at least conscious with each bite. I am imagining it going like this; talk, talk, talk, bite & chew with consciousnes, return to the talk, talk, talk talk, etc. So that when I am lifting my fork to put something into my mouth my primary focus shifts from the conversation to the fork and the food on it until it is past being chewed and the fork is back down on the plate.