It’s a good thing too, because I am headed into an intense period of travel and work for the next couple of months and it will be important to set up a few things to do in between trips and something to look for while traveling as a possibility. Although I have a hard time imagining myself looking for a pool to swim in in North Carolina at 6 am before I head into a Leadership Program or in Dubai before I head of to meet with the Bank execs or in Tel Aviv before I lead an R5. I do have to begin to plan for myself what my 2/3s will look like while traveling. I know that I plan not to take moving walkways in airports and travel light enough so that I can take stairs instead of escalators. I’ll take a look at the possibilities of walks around blocks before breakfast and after dinner. I do want to meditate every morning and depending on connections write something in my blog. When I am in New Mexico I am not worried about the opportunity for exercise or meditation there will be much movement and much stillness. I am aware that all of my programs of consciousness are possible except my blog. What I can do is to make journal entries on my laptop and send them to my blog when I get back from my trip in one big upload. I can still be using this form though for holding myself to account even on the edge of the canyon rim in New Mexico.
It is amazing really how thoroughly my old habits and ways of being have me convinced of the impossibility of these actions. How much I feel like I am generating possibilities on top of some sort of inner knowing that I will fail at every one of these intentions. I began this whole journey feeling the same way about eating at a table and not in front of a computer, tv or book, about staying conscious while eating with others, about stopping eating when I heard from my belly that I had had enough, about double and triple walking the stairs and parking at the far end of a parking lot. All of these things felt the same way and I am sinking more and more into these new habits replacing the old ones. Some are sinking in better then others and that is bound to happen. In a way I have reached a new challenge on my journey and since I am certain about the journey I know that the challenge will no longer stop it. I also know that I can not hold up any expectations of how well I will meet the challenge or fail to meet it. There will be some successes and some failures and as I ride along on this roller coaster of a journey my main job is to hold on and stay conscious all the way through it.