What I am noticing, in regards to my program, is that I am starting to create a universe that supports my program and my intention. Starting with the universe of mySelf as I start to feel smaller and I start to see myself, on occasion, in the mirror as smaller and as some clothes start to feel bigger, and as I am getting more and more conscious of what is on my plate and how much and, even more importantly, my body’s response to it. Have I had enough yet? Is this what I want? Slow down, enjoy and really feel into the responses to what is being consumed.
I am also noticing myself moving more and finding ways that my body loves to move and be still. I have felt the thrill and excitement in my body of doing something it absolutely loves to do, swimming, and am adding it my life in what ways I can. I have also incorporated meditation into my life, not as a “should” and a resisted necessity, as a thing that mySelf loves to do to clean out the cobwebs and add some healing clarity to my life and my day.
I am also creating a Universe of appreciation and inspiration around me that is encouraging me down the path that I have chosen. I am meeting all sorts of people on their own versions of a similar journey and as I listen to their programs I know longer feel threatened or any need what so ever to defend my program, take on theirs, or convert them to mine. I can stand in my own self authority and know that I am absolutely on the right path for me and see that they are on their own journey that is perfect for them and we do not have to be on the same path. This is new for me. I think so much of my resistance and defensiveness in life was based on my insecurities around the path I had chosen and feeling like there was always a better path out there, so I had to either defend it like crazy and often insult the person that was sharing with me or loose all belief in my own path and change over to their path losing a big chunk of my self confidence and belief in the process. Yuck. Now I can look out and see the Universe was just providing the same sort of encouragement and support for my journey then as now and I was just horribly misreading the signs.
So yesterday was a good day.
1/3 – Started out with a bowl of granola and coffee. Then went to our Thai cooking class and had a great time learning to cook Pad Thai, Lemon Grass Soup, Chicken and Thai Eggplants in Green Curry, Green Papaya Salad, and of course Sticky Rice and Mangos. Had a nice small tasting lunch that was a perfect 1/3 meal. Karen and I then did some shopping to buy the ingredients for the appetizers that we are going to cook today our little Oscar party. Then we met up with friends Karl and Gwen at Piatti’s restaurant and Karen and I split a chopped salad and I had a fresh homemade pasta that was delicious and was about a half portion of which I left a little on the plate. Then we went up to listen to our friend Sabrina give a delightfully spiritual/soulfull concert up at this sanctuary overlooking a twinkling San Francisco bay.
2/3s In cooking class there is lots of time on my feet and moving around the kitchen to check out this and that and to see what is going on at different stations. Lots of trolling though 2 unfamiliar super markets and parking lot walks. I would give it about a 6.5 on a scale of 10 for a 2/3s day.