Starting with accountability this morning.
✓ I swam 11 lengths of the pool (275 yards)
✓ I walked the length of several parking lots while shopping.
✓ I meditated
✓ I ate a small bowl of cereal and threw away 1/4 of it.
XX I had some pulled pork and plantain over rice for lunch and ate past the stopping point
✓ I had leftovers for dinner, half a baked potato (microwaving of which is a bad idea) and a hamburger with some pickled tomatoes on top. I threw away about 1/4 of this meal.
XX I had a glass of bourbon on the rocks before dinner.
I often wonder how much weather effects my moods or vice versa. I do notice that I tend to be more up and positive in my mood when the weather is sunny and tend to more down and dumpy when the weather is grey and stormy. So am I at the effect of weather? Have I trained myself to be excitable on a “glorious” sunny day and depressed on a “miserable” grey day? As a kid sunny days came with play and fun and let’s go and grey days came with colds and staring out the window and wishing for sun. On the other hand as I look out at this peaceful grey day with the subtle shades of grey on the ocean and the clouds, the places where the light is coming through the clouds and the flocks of birds flying in their black V’s across the bay as the grey surf breaks into white foam, I recognize the peacefulness of it and don’t think it a bit “depressing” it’s more like it helps me to slip into some reflection and contemplation.
Oh well it is interesting to work out my thoughts, feelings and moods here in front of the world. Ah consciousness!