The view out of my office window
I find myself in an interesting paradox with this personal work I am doing in this blog. As I sit here at my desk looking out at the vastness of the ocean and the sky and my two friends L. A. and Michelle are downstairs waiting for me to finish so we can get back to the design work we are doing that is going to support people in living more conscious lives and focus myself to where I need to look for another look into my own consciousness I am acutely aware of the simultaneous looking outwards and inwards. The primary importance of both means there is not a choice between one or the other, instead I need to hold in my mind the cycle of these two awarenesses that call me in different directions. The more powerfully I focus my awareness inwards and tell the truth about it the more profoundly my outside world starts to change and the more I take response-ability for my outside world the more clear and powerful the inside world becomes. And yet I can’t look for results for my inside work outside, or evidence of my outside work inside, because if I do I will invite in ego, co-dependency, and seeking for approval and results. So as I cycle around in this thinking I return to the quest I am engaged in here, to keep digging down into my consciousness for me, myself and I, to keep living into my intention and commitment for and to mySelf, to keep lovingly caring for all the parts of mySelf and to coax them into integration. AND to keep looking out into my world for what I can contribute that will continue to wake people up to their own aliveness and creativity and to do my best to point them to a deeper consciousness and mindfulness and protecting life.
Yesterday was a day filled with wonderful meetings with great people. I am having the kind of intimate and rich conversations with people that I remember having in my 20’s accept the maturity level is greater and I am taking myself a whole lot less seriously, and I am trusting the conversation itself, the relationship, and the process that is unfolding to reveal what is needed. It is really cool.
In regards to 1/3 and 2/3s; I did nothing unusual in the area of movement or exercise and I didn’t leave the house. I did move a bit more while designing and cooking but not enough to call it 2/3s. I left some cereal in my half filled bowl for breakfast and ate a cup of soup and a piece of rye toast, consciously, for lunch. For dinner I made some Chicken stir fry over rice for my co-designers and myself and managed to stay mostly conscious while eating and conversing and I ate about 3/4 of a bowl and stop when my belly said enough.
As the pace picks up with my life over these next few months, if I can be AS conscious with my eating and MORE conscious of my exercise I would be very happy.