Not realizing I had already lost one battle I went through my ablutions and sat down to meditate, which was great and as I am writing this I do wonder why I make it such a big deal to get that extra half hour to hour of sleep in the morning when I could be doing these great things. I could also go to bed earlier, boy there is a habit that was formed by TV watching as a kid. I definitely never went to bed before the news came on at 11.
Yesterday was a transition day and I did ok on restraint and moderation with my eating. I had a late breakfast at the local bakery of a small slice of quiche and a cup of coffee and then I meandered my way down to the airport stopping in a park and listened to my book for an hour or so, stopped for a diet coke, and tell the truth here Henry to yourself 😦 a small burger :-(( I knew I wasn’t going to eat any lunch with Sam and I wasn’t particularly hungry and I ordered the smallest burger they had, and I felt guilty while eating it. It was like the old sneaking cookies days. It didn’t taste good, in fact I didn’t really taste it at all I was so busy going through all sorts of feeling about that stupid little burger. Then to top it all off when Sam got in the car and asked if I had had lunch I basically lied and said I had had a late breakfast awhile ago and was fine. When in fact I had that little burger still working it’s way through my system as I was talking. I was already in denial to myself as well as lying to Sam for no reason at all except the old habit of sneaking a cookie and looking Mom straight in the eyes and saying I hadn’t.
However the rest of the day was great. Sam and I went to a nice restaurant and I was restrained in my ordering and was conscious during my eating while having a good conversation with Sam and didn’t finish my entree because I reached a point of done before the food was done. I would guess I ate a little over half of my entree and a salad and had a third of an appetizer that we shared. So all in all I felt good about the dinner.
All in all I feel good about this first skirmish with the Dragon of habits around leading the Leadership Program.