Of course I discover this cool flow the day before I take off for a month to go to Dubai, for 2 weeks, and then to Israel for two weeks. So that flow will be challenged a bit as I work out where and if I can swim and where I meditate, dream and blog. Most are quite easily solvable and only the swim might be a challenge at the hotels in Dubai. I know there is a pool in the hotels in Israel and I am not sure about the retreat center, and I know it will all work out just the way it is supposed to.
I am sitting here having mixed feelings about the upcoming journey. On the one hand I just got back from a 2 week journey and I would love to settle into a lovely routine of consciousness, if that makes any sense. On the other hand, clearly I have created the perfect opportunity at the perfect time to test mySelf and my program and practices. All of the time I have invested in mySelf and the practices to create the integration have been done in a beautiful and mostly controlled environment that make it simpler to establish and follow a program. Like any program though, once established it needs to be challenged and shaped by those challenges as much as by the intention itself. I need to pay attention to the feedback from the universe as I do to my intention. As I move in and out of that dance I find the weave of the two energies and learn the dance of my life’s dream.
I also feel this tug inside to speed things up a bit, like a small anxiety fluttering around in my solar plexus. I feel it pulling on the turtle medicine energy that I am so loving. I feel this familiar feeling of “faster” rising inside of this deep breathing, slow moving, powerfully efficient Self. As the preparations for the trip start swirling in my head and the wonderings if I have my ducks all in a row, and beginning to time out my trip to the airport, I feel the swirl start. I want to calm that swirl down while it is still a small thing in me. I want to move into this journey from the turtle place and keep breathing deeply as I move forward in my preparations and the journey itself. I want to feel the turtle as I get together with my friends and colleagues in Dubai and step in front of the room of bank execs. I want to move, think and speak from the turtle energy as I gather with the group of parents and leaders in the other workshops I am leading while on this journey. I want to be a turtle tourist while walking around some ancient historical and spiritual sites with my beloved. I notice as I write this that my deep breathing turtle self is calming down the “faster” and that the “wants” above are turning into “wills”. This is good.