The other thing that happened is that I changed hotels at the same time I was in a bit of a spiritual swirl. I changed from the hotel I described before, where I was on a high floor overlooking a stunning view of the Dubai Creek and the skyline of Dubai in the distance, with excellent service and restaurants and just a good feeling walking into the hotel and moving around it, to a brand new hotel in the middle of a construction zone where my room is on a low floor and I look out at massive buildings all around me under construction and feel encased in cement and glass and traffic that is being diverted in different directions because of the construction. This new hotel is very modern and contemporary in it’s design and there are lots of blacks and whites and sleek modern fixtures that have no personality or character to them at all. To top it off I walked in to this hotel with my spirit in a swirl and a bit turned upside down anyway so all I met was confusion and messed up service. By the time I woke up yesterday morning I was in the middle of a full flown downward spiral, I headed down to the breakfast buffet and was met by a woman who made me sign a form before she said good morning and seated me at a window looking at construction, down some more turns on the spiral, I went to order my omelette from the omelette guy and I stood there after putting in my order watching 4 other people order and receive their eggs, I ordered again and the man nodded and proceded to make another persons omelette and tell me to go to put other stuff on my plate first, so I did and looked at a buffet that through my downward looking eyes saw as pathetic compared to others I had seen in Dubai and I swirled a little further down the spiral, came back and ordered my eggs and after all that he didn’t make me what I ordered and I got back to my table and by this point I had reached hell and I swear that smoke was coming out of my ears and fire out of my eyes. I fumed my way back to my room. I was now officially and completely a VICTIM of my circumstances, all that I had learned about being responsible for creating my universe was completely gone. As I stumbled around a shower where the water didn’t drain and internet that didn’t work, of course, I knew that I needed help. I reached out to my beloved and beeped her on Skype every 10 minutes for an hour hoping and praying that she would find her way to her computer and be there. Then my computer beeped and there was angel of recovery. We talked and she listened and was patient and asked the right questions that helped me remember who I truly am and how to move towards recovery. She made a couple of suggestions and most of all loved me. We ended the call and I went over to meditate by my little alter, one of her reminder suggestions, and I could feel mySelf returning, I could feel the swirl starting to settle and the spiral dissipating.I put on my “I smile at strangers” t-shirt, I put it on underneath another shirt but it was there, and headed downstairs to catch a cab. I smiled at several of the staff and they said good morning and smiled back and I realized that the service in this hotel wasn’t nearly as bad if the swirl was settled and I knew it would be good. The other reason I put the t-shirt on is that it is a Leadership Quest of one of the Wild Boars, Leann Maxwell-Burr, and I was headed to a press conference of one of her fellow Wild Boars, Adrian Hayes. I went to the Mall of the Emirates, which is a whole story in itself (later), to a theatre where there were loads of school kids in their different uniforms from all sorts of different cultures. There were press folk there and CEO’s from sponsoring companies as well. Adrian is getting ready to trek with two colleagues from the south tip of Greenland to the north of Greenland, over 1500 miles, to bring more awareness to issues of global sustainability. Adrian holds a world record for reaching all three poles, the north and south pole and Mt Everest, in the shortest amount of time. This time this awesome adventurer and explorer is adding another level of leadership and meaning to the quest by bringing awareness to issues of sustainability and there he was signing all these kids up as ambassadors in their schools to raise the consciousness and awareness of their schools to the issues around sustainability. There he was making the press aware that of all the countries on the planet the United Arab Emirates has the worst carbon footprint per capita, at the same time he is totally inspiring everybody about the journey he is undertaking that has never been done before. So there I am sitting in my t-shirt that is bringing about world peace by having people truly smile at each other and create connections watching someone who is trekking across 1500 MILES of snow and ice to bring awareness to global sustainability and any remaining vestiges of the victim spiral are completely shattered and I truly remember who I am. I am the guy who polishes these diamonds of consciousness and brightens them and encourages them to trek on and step into creating a world that works for everyone. I’ll take that job and I will occasionally forget who I Am and I know that I have incredibly powerful and amazing people around me to remind me. What a life!