Yesterday afternoon as I drove through the sheep and cow pastures that lead up to the final leg of my homeward bound journey my heart started rising in my chest and I could feel the anticipation of each new next view, each familiar rock and tree, each bend in the road. I could anticipate where the fog would hit and be the thickest and guess as to when it would probably clear later. As I pulled into the garage I couldn’t wait to hop in the hot tub and soak away the journey. Like a zombie with only half a mind I lugged the suitcases in and the bags of groceries, opened the door and inhaled a big full breath of Home. I went outside and turned up the hot tub and then went back inside and, while I still had energy, unloaded groceries and suitcases, stripped down and sank into the warm and welcoming waters of Moriella the spirit of water. I let her warm me and rock me and hold me in the soothing heat as all the final wisps of adrenalin, stamina, and eyepropping energy dissappated. I managed to pour mySelf out of that warm pool and relax with nary a thought or a dream in sight, just empty blessed blankness of nada. My brain was active enough to know that I needed to stay awake for a couple more hours if I didn’t want to mess with my system too much over the next few days, so in a state of nada I went down and turned on the tube and have no idea of what I watched as nada ran things and eyes stayed open. I finally went to bed around 7:30 and slept 11 hours to get up and immediately fall into the hot tub this morning for a reprise, this time as an opportunity to find mySelf again,as a reviving ritual. I sat and meditated in the hot tub and watched, a much calmer ocean, the surf coming in and breathed in this new period of my life. This one starting today.Today I start by remembering my commitments to mySelf and recommitting. I remember who I am and what I am dreaming and examine and sharpen them to be more powerfully at cause with my dream. I remember where I have been and what I have promised and appreciate and honor the lives that have touched me and that I have touched. I remember my life purpose and what I have dedicated my life to and look to see how I will honor those things today. I look into mySelf and see how my body, heartmind, spirt and emotions are doing and what needs tending today. Finally I look to see what needs shifting or adjusting as I head into this miraculous day of being alive at this moment in history. Wow I do all of that in this new period of my life that is just starting today.
There was some good comments about the whole Poll thing, so here is another one.