Accountability is always a good place to start. I have been doing alright with restraint (except for the second piece of amazingly good garlic bread I snitched last night). I have been not doing a great job of moderation, I’d give myself a 6 out of 10, I am just not leaving enough on the plate. Even with restraint I would like to leave something more on the plate at the end of the meal. I was really doing well at that on the first day and a half or so and that has dissappeared as my plates have been pretty well cleaned by the end of meals. This also informs me that my consciousness level has been below a 10 as well, I would give it an 8, because I am not feeling a bit full after meals or like I have gone too far past a 3 out of 5 on the fullness scale. I have noticed the eating of the food and I also can recall that I probably lose consciousness somewhat near the end of eating, just because I am not aware of cleaning the plate and of my belly status. Something to look forward to practicing today, Although I am not particularly looking forward to anything right now except the possibility of crawling back into bed.
Movement is happening yesterday we did the path to success and that involves some walking and standing for an hour and a half or so and today is Ropes Course and I will be on my feet and walking around all day so plenty of movement will be happening. Not much movement on the plan for Sat and Sun, however I am going swimming on Monday.
I am really feeling the dedication to awaken the diamond of consciousness this morning. I am just not feeling very excited about that or anything else. So I guess there is value in just touching into the dedication or the purpose of my life even if I don’t much “care”. It is what is having my out of bed at 5:45am and what is having me writing this nonsense and what is having me wind my way up the hill and push people up trees so they can jump off and into their awakened self. From that perspective it is one of the best days there is in a series of amazing days in the life of this little light of mine.