Fortunately that habit isn’t happening these days. Instead what seems to be happening is this swinging of the pendulum back and forth and back and forth and stabilizing a little bit forward each set of swings. So it feels like that old song of 2 steps forward and 1 step back, only it feels more like 10 steps forward and 9 steps back, ultimately getting a step forward and yet both feeling like I am traveling a long way to get there and really liking what 10 steps forward feels like and wanting to live there and feeling sad when I find mySelf 9 steps back from there. So there is something about this whole intention thing that is dissatisfyingly loopy when I sometimes want it to be straight, clear and there already. Oh well there is indubitably more learning on the loopy path then there is on the straight and clear path and we all know that I am all about learning. I also need to remind mySelf sometimes that this is not a program that is going to be done in 6 months, a year or even 10 years, this is a program I am on for life. This is a program of intention and consciousness that will only deepen and broaden every moment of my life if I take the loopy trail. The straight super highway of my desires is fast and yet it will inevitably take me to the starting place where as the loopy road of true intention and consciousness that I am on will get me to wholeness and oneness, I am one thousand percent sure of this.
So here I am at the place where I have realized that I am 9 steps back and it is time to TRULY move forward again. It is time to recommit to 1/3 2/3’s all over again and to start from the beginning and slow things down with the food and speed things up with the movement. It is time to get back to holding mySelf accountable, with the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth, here in this blog. No matter how boring I might think it might be for all of you incredible readers and commenters, it is time for me to buckle down for the ride out again. It is time for me to hit the pool, which I haven’t been to for over a week and a half (I am going tomorrow, Friday and one day on the weekend). It is time for me to start cooking delicious meals again and eat them consciously and stop at 1/3 -1/2 of the plate and throw out the rest, it is time for retraining in moderation and letting go of restraint for awhile. The thinking is now going to be I am eating 1/3 -1/2 period of what I put on the plate, and what I put on the plate will be incredibly wonderful and tasty. Finally I will be writing about these things here truthfully and not concerning mySelf with being wise or with how many people are reading. It is also time for another video entry (I’ll put that up sometime this weekend). Well thats about it, I’ll see you on the journey or 10 steps out.