Actually I feel pretty good. I am aware of that new tap root, actually ancient tap root, of “I Am Wrong” that feeds a lot of the answers to those questions. I could spend some time stalking that sucker to it’s deepest point and pull that root up. I certainly don’t feel trapped in my relationship or my work. I sometimes feel a bit trapped in the “realities” around work. I have this life that I love, house that I love, and this work that I love, and sometimes these “realities”, like the economic slump we are all in, or needing to pay the bills trap me into making decisions that I don’t love. Sometimes I have to make decisions, in order to attempt to preserve something that I love, that I really don’t like or that might hurt someone I love. I would love to declare independence from those kind of situations. The truth is though that I live in this world of “realities”. I can pray and dream for it to be another way and then do my best to move things towards that dream. I can make other choices. Boy it’s a heart twister though to choose to let go of something you love so you don’t hurt another. To give up all that I know and love to protect another. I am not sure I am willing to make that declaration. I am not sure I want that independence, in fact that is smelling a lot like co-dependence and not independence. So maybe I will declare independence from Self-betrayal, I will come clean with mySelf and take complete responsibility for my choices. When I make a choice that hurts someone I take responsibility for it to the best of my ability and do what I can to heal the situation. I stay in relationship and I don’t abandon mySelf or the other. These are the things that I have been strengthening in mySelf as I integrate and discover who I Am.