It’s All Good. Three words that define the nature and truth of the universe and the truth about any struggle that is happening in mySelf. Thanks to the loving comments from some of the folks that have been reading these words that I put up here as a way to open up my consciousness and to keep integrating this amazing Self that I am into a fully conscious human being. All of the battling, melting, dipping, crashing, fighting of dragons, failure, resistance, and any of the other apparently disparaging words I have used in describing my journey ARE GOOD. They are explorations into the journey of my spirit, mind, body and emotions. During these explorations my spirit sometimes sags, my mind farts, my body has pains, and my emotions are nasty and sucky. These are all great teachers and guides on this journey of light. I recognize that when I am in one of those “negative” spaces, I don’t feel or sound very “good” or “positive” about mySelf or my journey. I’ve not yet developed as a writer in a way that I can express the completeness of the experience of the journey. When I am caught in the crap I think I write like that is all there is and I am a hopeless critter that is stuck melting and battling for ever. I know that isn’t true when I write it, and in fact I am often writing it to slog through it so that I can feel mySelf back on solid ground again. I know that when I am writing about being in a battle between light and shadow, or fighting a dragon, or feel the pull of the angel and the devil, I am dramatizing the struggle I am feeling inside. I also know that this struggle is a good thing, it means I am doing my work, I am on my own hero’s journey which sometimes has battles and monsters on it and sometimes has celebrations and rescued damsels on it, sometimes victories and sometimes defeats where I have to go back and do some healing work. It’s All Good.
The most important thing for me is to keep writing, keep looking and keep my feet going down the path of consciousness and integration. Part of the challenge to mySelf is to learn how to write it out more paradoxically somehow, maybe more poetically, who knows. I do know that second guessing what is coming out of me at this point isn’t a good idea and going back and doing a lot of editing of this kind of writing isn’t a good idea. Although I do need to learn to do that kind of writing too, the kind where I really am more committed to you the reader understanding and being entertained then I am to my own learning. Perhaps there is some kind of writing that gets both jobs done. I’ll keep on slogging and flying and see where it all goes.