All of this is preamble to my strange hallucinogenic experience of last night. I met up with some other friends of mine last night at a book club that I have been part of for the past four years. Most of the friends in this book club I have known and loved for longer then four years. As I met up with each of them something was quite different in what I saw and I had to keep checking with mySelf to make sure I was seeing what I was seeing. Everyone who I thought I knew so well seemed smaller, actually more compact versions of themselves. The space around them seemed larger in relationship to them then it had ever felt before. It was like the kitchen that I was seeing them all in was exactly as I remember it and someone had pointed a shrinking ray gun at my friends and they were there exact selves, only smaller in relation with the kitchen. I was a little freaked out internally at this bizarre sensation. Being me, I mentioned it and it didn’t communicate very well, understandably as I am always one who is wanting people to be bigger. How could I see these people I loved as SMALLER, it didn’t make any sense to me. As we ate our dinner and discussed the book we had read, the back of my minds were working on what this sensation was telling me. What about transformation was being revealed here, because it had to be about transformation as that was what I was up to most recently. I certainly hadn’t been doing any substances that would lead to this experience. Then it began to dawn on me. They were standing there in their own realities with none of the stuff I usually projected on them. What I had projected or assumed or believed about them actually changed them physically and I was now seeing them in their true size as opposed to the way I had “built them up”. This was a cool realization.
Maybe as we take off the layers we add to the people in our lives that we love and spend our time with they will actually get the opportunity to shrink down to who they really are and then it is up to them to grow into their own reality. It isn’t my job to inflate people or make them bigger. It is my job to point them to growing their consciousness about themselves and their world. However they must find it, open it and grow it themselves.