So now I am home perched in my aerie looking out over the ocean and the low hanging fog in contemplation of my leadership and the difference I am making in the world and what I am doing to keep the diamond of consciousness polished to a bright luster. I am contemplating what it is I need to tighten down in mySelf to Walk the Talk of the conscious leader. It doesn’t take much contemplation really. I know exactly what is needed. I have even begun scheduling and practicing what I need to do to screw in the loosening screws, I know exactly which screws have loosened up a bit in the last few months and which screw driver to use to tighten them back down. Opportunities abound for me outside mySelf as I clean up my own act. Opportunities abound inside mySelf as I commit and knuckle down on my projects and quests. That is the wonderful paradox of consciousness, I don’t have to sit around and wonder where to put my attention. When I fully invest my attention in one direction everything else gets more vivid and bright. When I remember to ground mySelf in Who I Really Am, using any number of practices that I have learned over the years and then act from that grounded Self, I notice that I act in ways that further my own growth and evolution and also further the evolution, growth and transformation that is wanted and needed by life.
And when I let the screws get too loose and forget, I notice that life bumps along and I even do and say smart things and can still be pretty effective at creating powerful shifts in both mySelf and others, and it just seems to have a lot less shine to it. It feels like something is “wrong” or “out of sorts”, I notice that I am more emotionally unstable and easier to “hook”. Old tap root feelings of judgment start to make their ways back into my story, I feel fat and out of shape and lazy and blah blah blah.
So here I am tightening down the screws of my practices and getting my Bear all buffed up, shining the shell of my turtle and pointing mySelf back on the road of intention, moderation, restraint, consciousness and integration.