Why are we at Starbucks this morning one may ask? Well I am so glad I asked. We left the house this morning headed into town for a swim, for me, and a walk, for Karen from which we headed over to the park for a meditation and then a jaunt over to Starbucks for breakfast and some blogging and consciousness work. It is sort of fun to be out in the world and doing my practices. Knowing that I can ground mySelf and deepen my work outside of my normal routines that I set up for mySelf.
From here we head down to San Francisco to do a little long over due shopping and then wend our way back to Dillon Beach stopping for some dinner somewhere on the way home. I fun and grounded day out together. Got to do that too.
The house still smells like smoke and I am still looking at all the learning that there is to do as a result of some of the unconscious and boneheaded moves I have been making recently. I am very grateful for the comments in the last post and leaning into all sorts of different questions and possibilities.
I do have a strong sense in my life that there is some big thang coming down the road for me and my universe. I am aware of the limitless space that exists in me for whatever is coming so I don’t have to “clear out grey matter” to make room for it. I am using so little of the possibility of space that exists in all my minds that I know that there is no way that I can “blame” my consciousness lapses on that one. I also know that there is and always be a resistant rebel in me that looks for times and places to grab a hold of me and give me a shake, rattle and roll. He especially likes to shake me up right after I have made a powerful declaration regarding choice, responsibility or commitment. I have a much clearer sense of him and actually appreciate the question he keeps me living in and I do sometimes get surprised by the way he acts out. This past few days feel more like he has been tricking me in and out of consciousness and I am also really clear that when he is in the midst of running his routines there is this other choice a little down and to the left that is a powerful conscious and integrated choice that moves me in a clear and life affirming direction. I am gettting better and better at seeing that choice and better at actually stepping onto that path with easier reliability. And sometimes I don’t, and when I don’t I just need to always remember that that path is always right there a choice away.