WindEagle, one of my teachers and one of the people we included on the evolutionary video that we started the Summit out with, spoke of a “quickening” that is happening in life as we move forward on this evolutionary journey we are on. This “quickening” is what we see all around us as systems are being turned upside down and ways we used to think about things are not working anymore and we have to find new and more complex ways of seeing things and then marvel at the simplicity of the way of seeing once the complexities have been noticed and on and on this world moves. It is no longer “creeping along at it’s petty pace” as my man Mr. Shakespeare wrote about a few years back.
When I can hold this quickening out in front of me and notice it in the world around me I am struck with excitement and fear as the changes rush in. I rub my hands together in glee anticipating the next leap in evolution. However when I feel this quickening happening inside of me and inside of the circles that are close into me it gets pretty hard to hold on to the excitement part. As I open more and more to this quickening I open mySelf to the remarkable emotional and spiritual pushes and pulls that seem to be increasing by the hour and not by the week or the month like they used to do.
Let’s go back a couple of weeks to a time preSummit. We are in the final stages of a 6 month preparation for this momentous event combined with another momentous event which is a meeting of our global faculty where a myth-change is abrewing. I am gearing myself up in all parts of mySelf for these events. I am getting both psyched and scared emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally. I am pointed.
Then my favorite uncle dies. My mom’s only remaining sibling and all plans change as I move things around to meet with my family in Ohio before I leave for Florida. In Ohio I meet with cousins and relatives and family friends I haven’t seen in a long time and form new and profound relationships as we celebrate the life of this great man. There is grief present but it is mostly celebration of life that is occurring, which is how my Uncle would have liked it. My preparation for the Summit now has some new background to bring into it as all of my Siblings get ready to leave and either go home to repack or head straight to Florida. Then weather comes into the picture as Michigan and Wisconsin are hit by a blizzard and planes are cancelled my Mom and two sisters Helen and Jeanny have to change their plans. Helen who is also presenting at the Faculty meeting for the first time can’t get home to collect her stuff and her clothes for Florida so some cousins take her shopping and send her off to Florida. Jeanny makes it home and grabs her stuff and then heads back to the airport to attend her first big coaching event with all her sibs.
We have moved from family at a funeral to Myth-Change in our work and an Evolutionary Leap for humankind and life. Helen is brilliant at the Faculty presentation she gives and she looks fabulous in her new Nordstrom’s outfit and is flying from her success. My brothers Pat and Sam are in the room dancing and learning with 120 other leaders from all over the world. Karen, Karl Snaidy (The president of CTI) and I are all flying on the powerful shift in this body of people we all love so much and this business that we believe in. We head off to dinner and to prep for the upcoming Summit. During dinner my brother Sam calls me and urgently requests that I come up to his room, so feeling like I am in the swirl of too many things to do and to many people to see already I travel up to Sam’s room and find my 83 year old mother has decided to come to the Summit.
After I recover from the shock, she wasn’t planning on coming and for her to travel anywhere is a big deal, I see the tears in her eyes and she says to me “When I was at my brothers funeral I realized that I couldn’t miss this huge event in my children’s lives.” I completely got it and loved her and immediately went to work as to how we could get her to the things she wanted to attend and went down to join my team as we went through our tech rehearsal for the opening of the Summit.
The Summit opened and I have talked about how incredible it was in a previous post and it was. Everyone did a spectacular job. I had my Mom stand up and represent all of the ancestors that got us there and receive the acknowledgment from 400 people for being the one who started it all. Then all 4 of my sibs stood up and represented the families that are out there supporting and doing the work and all was good in the world.
The next day Helen and Pat came down with bad colds and couldn’t play in the events of the day. Their colds got worse and yet they really wanted to play so they brought themselves down to hear Lynne Twist and participate to the best of their ability in the conversation that followed and then went back to their rooms and thought about how they were going to get home with fevers. They managed to do it and Pat got better and Helen went into the hospital with Pneumonia.
Now Helen is in the ICU and having a hard time getting rid of the infection and a hard time finding air to breathe.
This is where the quickening is hitting home too hard. It is sort of hard to rub my hands together in glee with this particular quickening, this one that hits me and my family so hard on the heels of so much. This is when I want a little breathing room for all of us, literally and figuratively, and this is where the universe and evolution and quickenings and turnings of the tide and the foot of evolution coming down are all happening too fast and I want it to slow down so I can savor it all a bit more. I want to be able to savor my Uncles life, the Faculty Myth-Change, The Co-Active Summit, and this time of healing of my beautiful sister. Yet here I am bungee jumping through them all.
Is this just more paradox? Am I just discovering that I both love and hate this quickening time we’re in? How do I move through this quickening time with the medicine of turtle?