I still feel squeamish that people got hurt and that lying, breaking agreements and promises, and misleading and misrepresenting has to happen to win the game. It makes me examine, again, what is integrity? Boston Rob was in complete integrity with his goals, missions, perspectives and purpose, he never wavered from these things. He was completely out of integrity with the agreements he made with others whenever those agreements conflicted with his goals and purpose. What is more important in the expanding consciousness of the world, living on purpose or making and keeping agreements? Ideally of course I would want to pursue both simultaneously and fully. Do I sometimes have to betray my agreements for the sake of my purpose? I would hope that if, in my passion and eagerness, I make agreements, and then I discover that they are moving me away from my purpose that I will absolutely renegotiate or break those agreements. I would hope that I would do that cleanly, courageously, and that I wouldn’t get all wrapped up in co-dependency and taking things all personally. I would also hope that I would be there to the best of my ability to clean up the mess that inevitably occurs when I break my agreements.
Finally there is something that the show Survivor and pretty much all media and even most of my beloved stories want me to do is to divide the world into me or them, good or evil, black or white. I want to recreate stories so that there is more complexity to them. I want them still to represent the hero’s journey where the hero or heroine must find their way through the conflict and challenge to the transformation. I want to stop seeing those conflicts and challenges as “bad” “them” and the hero as “good” “us”. We need to move more to an AND world and away from an OR world.
Boston Rob was a hero AND a villain, a good guy AND a bad guy. He was a complex human being and no matter how the producers of the show or the other cast members tried to twist it or maneuver the viewers to pick sides and want to make him bad OR good, he managed to defy those attempts at depiction. Good on you mano. I only hope to be able to continue to defy those who wish to simplify me and box me into this or that.